The Journey Is Now Envisioned.

This would be a short summary of probably one of the three most influencing days in my good eighteen years of living on Earth. As cliche as it sounds, this "reflecting on oneself" programme has truly made me realise three things clearly - What I want. What I need. What is important to me. From the talks by Duke, University of Pennsylvania, Stanford, MIT, Cambridge, Michigan, Warwick, and London School of Economics would be & graduated scholars, its has been a privilege to actually talk and ask them about their experiences- SATs, TOEFL, AP, application essays and all the toils, tears and blood for the sweetest thing in return, which is the admission to Ivy Leagues/ Top universities. One of the common characteristic shared by all the scholars was of course, well, their hard work. Hard work might be a little bit underrated here, for they really studied their asses off for it. It makes me wonder really on how much effort I am actually putting in now for my studies. That's of course, one of the realization that dawned upon me. Triple majors, double degree, intern ship in three different continents before coming back,  it was like a W-O-W thing for me. Never did I thought that I would meet these cool geeky people in my circles - and the fact that I would probably be colleagues with them in the next few years in the bank thrills me! :D I seriously feel so grateful that I chose the bank instead, because I am able to see how much support they give us scholars, and the people who makes the bank running who are charismatic, responsible, intelligent, confident really do make an effort to make us one of them in future. It is true what the psychologist said - The physical appearance of the building itself would give one a "run-down" image of the bank- but when you take a look in who are the people inside- you. will. be. amazed. (Did I mention that he's extremely good looking too? :P) 

"What do you daydream about"

"What is important to you?"

"Who do you want to be?"

Three of these questions that were imposted did make a difference. I began to see the light of the importance of each of them- and what it really means to me (I really hate psychology sessions in a group- its kinda like stripping you naked in front of your peers who you barely know). Everyone who knows me for three days would be able to answer the first question for me - My boyfriend Yee Kang Yung. Scholar or not, geeky or not, kiasu or not, yes I admit that I am super duper in love with this boy of mine :) I do dream big, and dream ahead. When asked what do I daydream about, I was at first doubting myself whether or not to be truthful, for it was the mentality of not wanting to 'get those stares' from the scholars. But it was Azhari that made me realize one thing- I am actually judging who am I within. I should not have had second thoughts about letting it out. Yes, superficially I may say I am proud, but am I really feeling so? After thinking it through, I got it- I am not like any other eighteen year old girls who are lovesick and just living the moment in the fervor of love. No, I am sure that I want to spend my life with this guy, just like how I am sure about things that I want to do in my life. That's how much he means to me. And for what is actually important to me- I already have the answer the moment the question was potrayed. I am what's important to myself. I am no saint who puts other people first in my life. Selfishly, every time there's a situation that I am going through- I would put myself into account first. Well, we only live once- so I am not going to let any chances slip by that makes me regret it for the rest of my life. And by putting myself first and able to succeed in things I do, I am able to make the people around me happy. My mom, my dad, Jo and bii :) I would share success, but I would not let anyone else take away the chance that I too equally have a shot at it. That's who I really am I suppose. For the third question it's a very interesting one- we did it with Oompa-Loompa (He looks funny hahaha.). We were asked to dream big like we are living it in the present- and of course one that could be realized. My answer presented was:

I am Vivian. I am a well known mathematician that has won two Nobel prizes by the year 2024. I am holding three degrees, two masters, and a PhD. I am happily married to Christopher Yee and working with Bank Negara as an Assistant Gabenor. I own a few houses, managed to buy my father two sports car, brought my mom to Switzerland and had tonnes of adventure with my baby sister, Jo. On top of that, I am a prolific writer and published several books on crime thrillers.

Totally living in the dream :P